Tok dah Tak Dak :-(

I wanted to blog again but just could'nt find the time.  I thought i would start off by continuing my Europe trip but little did i know i will be here writing this piece. A lot had happened in 2013. So much to write, so much to share. Today 18 October 2013, 13 Zulhijjah 1434 Friday, my dear grandma@ Tok passed away at 9:15am. Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji’un (انا لله وانا اليه راجعون). 

All day long i could only hear her laughter and how she smile at me. Subhanallah, I miss her dearly. Nasha miss Tok sangat Tok, miss to hold, hug and kiss you.  I remembered the times when we sew my nightgown together, how i told her i wanted to learn cooking from her but she just laughs. How she would come to my house every afternoon just to see my baby, Iman. How she made few pants for Iman. I will keep and show him Tok. How she smiles when Iman & Bila come by to see her. How she takes care of her garden in kampung. How she sibuk suruh Mak Iti and Mak Yang buat makan when orang datang. Tok memang rajin jamu orang makan. Rajin keringkan nasi untuk pos ke kampung bagi ayam makan! Buatkan kain selimut dari kain perca, sedap selimut Tok. Miss acar Tok bila time sahur.

She went well today. Alhamdullilah, semua smooth. Puas dapat mandikan Tok. Clean as a baby. Seeing Mak Iti ambilkan wuduk Tok and kissing her feet, sayunya. Rezeki Allah bagi kat Mak Iti, jaga ibu hingga ke akhir hayat. Rezeki Tok di Majid Al Takwa Taman Tun Dr Ismail, orang masih bertakbir AidilAdha. Ramai jemaah. Semua anak, cucu and cicit ada keliling Tok. As they started closing her face, i felt so sad coz i realized that her children..my Dad@Bapak tertutup satu rezeki untuk dapat pahala yang paling senang without doing anything..simply by looking at his mother. Ya Allah, semoga kita semua sentiasa bersyukur kita masih ada ibu bapa. Betapa sayang Allah pada kita, free pahala just by looking at our parents. Will i be as lucky as you, Bapak....

Lepas dikubur, Bapak started sharing some stories which i never heard before...it really reach deep inside me, they were poor those days.  Nak pergi sekolah, minyak rambut Brylcream habis so Tok pour hot water just to get what's left for Bapak. Next day, she put coconut oil on his head. hehehehe...Then he continue how his Dad would cycle to his school just to give him 10sen. That was 55 years back and he can still recalled. Lesson learnt, treat our children dengan penuh ikhlas, love them and do the best for them, insyaallah, they'll never forget u in their doa.

My dad went back to Mak Iti's place tadi, he left the house and came back just to say "Mak, Joe balik dulu" only to realize that Tok is no longer around. Ya Allah, Sadnya. I know he would miss his routine, chatting with Tok, sending her breakfast, massaging her. You always make Tok laugh, Bapak. She's always asking for you when i drop by to see her even when you just went to see her in the morning. 

You're so lucky Tok, to get a nice resting place. Atas bukit, so peaceful. You have shown a good example to us..berkat amalan Tok, janji Allah tu benar and pasti. Insyaallah i will try and follow you. Semoga Tok ditempatkan di Jannatul Firdaus. Nasha rindu sangat sangat dekat Tok..:-((

Al-fatihah

19oct 2013 Saturday, 1;47am