Mak, Please Don't Leave Me :-(

On 24th September 2010, I was awaken by somber dream. I hated the dream. I walked out from my room and saw my mom sitting on the floor next to the computer table. She had her back against me. She was flipping at the old album. She was looking at my father’s photo as if caressing the picture. “ I will miss him dearly” says my mom and I asked why? She uttered words that sent me chills down my spine. “I will go away soon”, She held my hand and brought me next to her bed. There were yellow spots on her pillow and she said that’s the sign that her life is coming to an end. I hugged her from behind and wept, I remembered telling her “please don’t leave mak, I think I’ll go crazy if you ever leave me”


I wasn’t crying when I woke up. I didn’t know what to make out from that dream. I walked to the door to find my mom but my legs trembled. I felt weak. I was afraid to open the door, afraid the ‘dream’ comes to life. Moving back to my bed, lying motionless and started to cry. I realized that I was not ready for this. The whole day I kept thinking about the dream. I cried in the office. Was it a bad dream? Or its just a waking up call. But it was so real. Was it a sign? Does god wants me to prepare? Oh God, I’m not ready for this. Not now. Please give me time to be with them, to care and make them happy before you decide to take them.


All along I was making sure I spend time with my kids but I wasn’t aware that I didn’t really spend time with my parents. Yes, we live in the same house, we talk and laugh everyday but we stop doing things that we used to do together. No more groceries shopping, gardening, walking at the park, going for picnis. I never focus on what makes my parents happy. Before I went back home, I made a list the things I need to do with my parents. That very day I went back home and I actually started looking at my parents, they are indeed old. All this while I was have taken my parents for granted, I still believe they are strong and vibrant. I love them dearly and long to do things with them. I know time envy us so I need to make the best that I can. God, please hear my prayers.

Today my mom turned 61, born on 29-09-1949. Happy Birthday Mak, Nasha sayang mak sangat sangat, always and always and I can just imagine how lonely and empty my life would be without you around me. Moga panjang umur and sihat selalu. I would be most happy if we can sit and plan Iman’s and Nabila’s wedding in the next 20 years to come. Good Nite Mak.



My parents in 2007 with Iman



Sticker Time With Nabila

I can’t remember when I introduce stickers to Iman. He enjoyed every bit of it and I have many sticker books around. It enhances their motor skills by pulling and pasting the stickers. Its another method of learning rather than just direct reading. Nabila started yesterday, she’s 1 ½ year. Was is too late? I don’t know but im glad she can paste although pulling out the sticker was a bit tricky for her.

I feel as parents we should just let our kids venture into apa apa je laa…we should not strict them to a certain age group. I remembered when Iman started on jigsaw puzzle, I always bought simple puzzles until one day I spotted him finishing the simple puzzle in few minutes. Gradually I picked puzzles which are above his age.

Kids are like sponge, they absorb as long and as much as they can. Amazing! So don’t look down on them, they are actually better than what we think. Of course we have to give them ample opportunities to show us.


With Nabila I felt terrible as these days I didn’t make time to sit and read with her. So this week, my schedule would be “Sticker Time with Bila".  I have many range of sticker books..from ABC to machines to nursery rhyme..trust me you should get the ABC, the first words.. better still, get 'em all hehehe





how do i turn this pictur? its suppose to be vertical !

 inside the book



Pangkor, Teluk Dalam Resort

Sorry for the sluggish post, I wanted to blog during the raya hols but I was feeling a bit lazy and sleepy due to the amount of ketupat and lemang strolling down my throat all the way to the stomach! On 3rd day of Aidilfitri, we escape to Pangkor Island. If you had read my earlier post, I won this package trip.


Trip to Pangkor from KL took about 3 hours., Left at 10.45 and reached at 1.45pm. Using the North South Highway, take exit Bidor . Its totally a trunk road after that Follow the route till Teluk Intan, then head towards Sitiawan. Once you see the Lumut sign, you’re on the right track.

The parking bay was quite near to the terminal. About 5 minutes walking distance but with the kids make it 10-15mins walking distance! The one suppose to be sitting on the stroller wants to walk while the one suppose to walk want to sit in the stroller. Just imagine, 1 big luggage, 1 stroller with a kid, 1 backpack of floats, 1 milkie bag and 1 toddler who needs to be hold on to. It makes me..grrrrr…We miss the 1.45pm ride and the next ridee would be at 3.45pm!!

Pangkor has nice panorama view. Its definitely a peaceful island. The sea breeze ride was about 25-30 minutes. Ferry was quite big enuff and has a deck where you can go have some snaps. Then, we hopped on to a van which drives us straight to the resort.

I had requested a place nearby to the swimming pool and the lounge. Thank god for that! The resort had a pretty big area. Even before I open the luggage, the kids excitedly removed their clothing and standing stark naked at the door waiting for the splashing activities. Boy, we didn’t waste any time at all do we!

Enjoyed every bit of the moments, we were there from 4.50pm till 7.00pm. Later we had our buffet dinner. I would say ok except it would be pretty spicy for the children. By the time we got back to our chalet, we were flat and sleepy. DRAMA BEGINS at 4.00am!, without a warning I was infront of the toilet bowl vomiting for god knows how many rounds. By 7.30am, I was brought to Klinik Kesihatan Pulau Pangkor since no other clinics open at this time. As a government service clinic, they live by the protocols. With a low BP, they concluded I was pretty dehydrated and will pass out soon. My cure was the DRIP! Yup you read it correctly, they wanted me on a drip. Like a mad person, I reluctant but no no.. I was their patient and that’s the procedure. I knew there and then, there goes my vacation. At that time, I was really mad! Its like being force into something you don’t want. GERAM GERAM…

By the time I got back to the resort, the clock ticked 11.00am. My husband decided we should get back to KL incase I fell sick again at nite. Painfully I have to follow. I felt I had spoilt the whole vacation. It was the day that we were suppose to go for island hopping and snorkeling. I wanted to bring the kids to the beach. It would be Nabila’s first time. Sob Sob..

We left the island at 4.30pm right after the kids had their last swimming splurge.

I did some reading before coming to Teluk Dalam Resort and 80% had given negative views on the place such as lousy food, dirty chalet, unfriendly staff so I had myself prepared for the worst but by experience, it wasn’t that bad at all. It was pretty ok. Only that TDR is quite far from the town. About 20mins drive.

Anyhow I have to raise my hat to the residents, they have managed created an oasis of lush greenery. I must admit thou the resort was quiet and empty, it was like owning our very own vacation house so be sure to request for a chalet near to the lobby and swimming pool if you happen to visit TDR.



we stayed at room154




the chalet..nice, iman asked me why we need to stay in this small house and he was searching for the staircase in the chalet!  He thought all houses ada staircase!



monster time...

nabila taking her 1st dip

dah boleh swim nak selam pulak!

I bought for the kids end up the 'big' kid playing

Iman wanted to stay and go for a swim :-(

Telum Dalam Jetty

Mild Eczema

Nabila has mild eczema. I wasn’t aware earlier on although during confinement she developed bad rashes on her face when I consumed chicken. Since then, I stopped Johson&Johnson and started to use Sebamed as its more gentle on her skin.

Anyway, starting last month I’ve started to use Melaleuca, It has a complete line of wellness products. I’ve tried the Koala Pals Tear-Free Body Wash and Koala Pals Tear-Free Hair Wash for Nabila. Its actually similar to Sebamed but Sebamed liquid is much thicker. For a 325ml bottle, the price is quite reasonable. Using only natural ingredients such as coconuts, oats, vitamin E, aloe vera, and chamomile, it leaves a delicious fruity scents.

Melaleuca products are tea tree oil based, and have no harsh chemicals or additives in them. So its not harmful to the eco system, and nothing in these products will hurt even after they end up in the septic systems. Knowing that this product is safe, I’m don’t have to worry if Nabila swallows the bubbles or the water as no harmful chemicals that could cause her to become ill and that’s part of the reason why I’ve willing to try out in the first place. Forgot to mention but if im not mistaken, this an Australian product

Gruesome Killings of Sosilawati, Kamarudin, Abdul Kamil and Noorhisham

Today, my initial plan was to blog about my Pangkor trip but with media flashing the brutally murdered of Sosilawati's case these past few days makes me want to join the malaysian crowd in screaming out "What the hell has happened to the people of Malaysia?"  Then we have the ustazah and son case.  What have we become??  Kenapa ada orang-orang macam ni dalam Malaysia??? 

But disebalik kejadian kejam ni, ada hikmah.  At least the families of 'other unfound victims' may finally have some hope in solving the 'disapperance mystery' all this while.

It was on the news today that one of the suspects admits they were given RM1500 for stabbing the poor woman outside the main suspects house.  For RM1500??? Are they that desperate enough?  I mean for RM15,000 i can still believe orang akan kelabu mata but for seribu setengah?  Sickening indeed!

Some news claimed that the victims were cut into pieces before being burned.  They were beaten with cricket bat, ditarik guna besi cangkuk guni and macam2 lagi.  One of the suspects who did the 'operation' has yet to be captured.  And he is just 19 years olddddddddddddd. 

Around 8.30 pm, more shocking news!  Some 'warga asing' were thrown into kandang beruang.  I assume ni pekerja dia kot.. Bangla kaa Indian ka, Pakistan ke...yang illegal immigrants laa.. Gila betul..i dont want to imagine further!

Either speculation or facts, it was definitely a heinous offense, appalling act, horrendous... I cant picture and image of myself cutting rabbit into pieces let alone a human being. Kalau seorang, i can still accept perhaps rasa takut, panic can actually turn a man into something his not but all 4??? memang brutal, takde hati perut. JAHAT SEJAHAT punya manusia!


Nak di jadikan cerita on the 8th Sept 2010, boleh pula this Indian lady, all the way from India came to Malaysia and make a police report about her husband missing at the farm and with that clue, the police managed to trace the farm.  One thought, only after 8 months she finally came down to seek the husband.  Could it be a coincidence? God is GREAT!

Reading one end to another, i felt as if I'm reading a Hindi novel macam cerita2 hindustan yang selalu tayang on Saturdays,  The bad guy was always portraying himself as the good guy, charitable guy, helpful and bla bla.  When one villager goes against, he'll be captured, tortured, burnt and the ashes will be thrown in the river.  Cuma the difference dalam cerita Hindustan, ada hero emerge at the finale.

Quote Selangor police chief Datuk Khalid Abu Bakar said  "Before writing your stories, please get your facts right and not simply get confirmation from anonymous sources," he said, adding that information obtained from such "sources" may not be true.

Betul tu datuk, from one newspaper to another, the stories will be slightly different. Some reports indicate that the victims were chopped before being burnt.  Some stated beaten and vice versa.  I agree, bukan semua betul but bukan semua salah jugak.  Well Datuk Khalid, all of us want the stories.  At least i believe with the media pressing the cops, the PDRM has started to use VPOWER RACING 97 rather than before only RON95.  Anyhow, syabas to PDRM for a job well done, a fast one and please please korek all the previous cases.  We hope you guys can korek deeper.  The ustazah and her son case was a good example, fast tracked case.  Bravo!

My heart goes out to all the families of the victims.  I'm pretty sure memori ni akan kekal sampai bila2 dengan diaorang and paling menyedihkan apabila setiap kali kita beraya, family diaorang akan terkenang ibu dan bapa diaorang yang dibunuh dengan kejam sampai ke akhir hayat mereka. Kesiannya :-(

Salam Takziah buat the families.


May You Rest in Peace Sosilawati, Kamarudin, Abdul Kamil and Noorhisham

To all kawan kawan muslims, sama-samalah kita sedekahkan Al-fatihah.

I must say, the cops looked more like the suspects as compared to the real suspect.  I think before i'm being interrogate, i would have peed in my pants.  Jangan mare ye Encik-Encik Polis

Aint We Lucky?

Malaysians are so lucky.  I'm not sure how many of us realized.  I too at times forget how lucky i am.  The picture says it all.  Pray that one day, we wont come to this state.  Insyallah.

HOW RUDE!

Some people are very rude. I mean very very rude. Last 2 weeks, I was walking towards my car, about to go off. Came along this young boy who parked right behind my car. Fair enough, he was in a hurry and will take a second to buy/take things. He walked pass by me without saying a word or even a nod or some gestures to say, “sekejap ye” or “just a short while” or “I’ll be a sec only” ke something laa… instead he goes in pet store and walk around. I waited, wasn’t long about 3 minutes. He knew I was waiting, but because he didn’t make any eye connection with me, I honked. Nope he didn’t wave pun, honked again, he was busy talking to the store owner. Kerek betul mamat ni. I got fed up and just stare at the store. Then few minutes later, he came out, passed by me and walked into his car and drove off. ^#&!#!*@!*(! No manners betul. Damn RUDE!

I wonder what kind of parenting skills these days parents have. I wish and I pray hard one day that my children would not turn into this kind of creatures! Urghhhhhhhhh. Kalau budak tu baca, you the young boy in black tees and Bermuda infront of pet shop at Bukit Antarabangsa at 4.30pm on 28Aug2010, Saturday!

Now or Then

Lets have some fun before getting ready for Raya.  I took this quiz from the New York Times , just a check whether you're still in trend or out of trend.  I got 4 out of 6: "Close, but no stiletto." Never mind, i stop wearing stilettos 2 years ago :-)

Salam Lebaran… Salam Aidilfitri Kad Raya, Pelita, Mercun

Seriously I miss receiving kad raya! Dulu dulu siap tunggu posmen datang. But that was then..25 years ago. Nowadays nak dapat 5 pun susah..there’s sms, there’s email, internet greeting and vice versa. How technology has evolved! Plain, simple and just a click away. That’s the technology motto.

Kadang kadang things as little as this can actually remove the ‘kemeriahan’ Aidilfitri without us realizing it. Hardly see people lighting up pelita these days. In one taman, perhaps no even one. Nice lantern, lampu lip lap lip lap are more convenient I suppose. Plus its safer. Bunga api and mercun are no longer satisfying, instead children are more adventurous to try out the symphony like sound mercun.

I don’t know about you but for me technology kills ……am i'm joining the tech crowd :-(



I can surely blame technology for making it so easy to “communicate” while not saying much!


SELAMAT HARI RAYA KAWAN KAWAN ...HATI HATI DI JALAN RAYA

Raya Decor 2

4 more days till Aidilfitri. Yesterday I went to Jalan TAR., passed by SOGO. Oh my god, massive crowd! From outside, look as if SOGO is tumbling down. Its like the bees sucking up the honey. Being a Malaysian, we all know the motto. LAST MINUTE SHOPPING. You don’t agree? Sure you did your shopping before Ramadhan but still there are things which spring up at the very last minute. Serunding laa..samping raya, songkok, butang baju melayu…needless to say more.

Raya is coming so people are changing curtains, cushions, new flower arrangements and many more. Hey, if you don’t change this round when will you change? You know the medias are potraying that we the women are the culprits. The spendthrift! Its absurd. Perhaps only 10%, the rest of 90% like us are well planned and organized. Seriously, we don’t simply go and custom made curtain on normal days. We don’t make flower arrangements on normal days either. This is time. Salah ke? Bazir? Well if you’re changing your furniture every year of coz laa over. But then again if you can afford and you’re making 50K per month. Tukar saja ler…I mean bukan boleh bawak mati pun duit tu hehehehe..i’m becoming the devil over here!

This year, I’m changing my cushion cover, mind you, it’s the throw cushions! Am going to make one nice flower arrangement as well. Went scouting around for nice cushion covers with my sis 1 week before Puasa. Went to IKEA, SSF and Living Quarters, if I wanted a nice one, I got to fork out around RM49.90 – RM79.90 per piece, so for 6 cushions, its gonna cost about em…almost RM300 above so pusing punya pusing, I went and bought the materials instead. Force my sis to learn how to sew a cushion. Will show you all the result later..perhaps after Raya. I just cant wait. Below are some inspiring throw cushions, lovely!

Courtesy Pix: greenyourdecor.com.
I suka semua pillows ni...specially the one at the top right corner...geram

Courtesy Pix : Stylehive.com
Left- nampak exclusive and grand.  I love flowers but would not suit my sofa

Courtesy Pix : greenyourdecor.com

Left- Dramatic.  Right - CUTE, would definitely put this in my upstairs living room

I love flowers but cant match my sofa! Geramnya...beautiful and fresh!

Frills and more frills...would love to put this in my house, but cant!  habis dikerja my kids

Raya Cookies

Despite rushing for my dental appointment on Saturday and going shopping at Pavilion, I managed to bake cookies. It was pretty hectic on Saturday, after shopping at Pavilion where I got myself 2 knitted cardigans and 2 spaghetti straps at Forever 21, its on sale. Go Now! tehehehe..

Arrived home, straight away change into my daily attire and start making the dough. Its one of my favourite, Custard Crepe. It was kind of hard to make as the dough is soft so when u used any mold, it just doesn’t seem to turn into the shape that you want. I ended up using bottle cap and sprinkle some choc rice for decoration. Upon seeing my crescent shape cookie, Iman kept on asking my I didn’t do other shape such as circle, triangle and square! Perhaps he thinks its playdough! While my husband called this cookie, Biskut Tudung Botol! Anyway love the custard taste..yummy!


Few more missions to complete before Raya, on Thursday its Marble cake and Batik cake. 2 more cookies would be the makmur and biskut Mazola. Wish me luck..

 

Raya Decor

Since early Ramadhan, I’ve plan to decorate my living hall with some colors. My living hall is basically all in neutral tone or earth colors you might wanna call it. I wanna get a nice vase which I plan to place beside my tv cabinet.

Last 3 weeks went to SSF and saw this lovely transparent purple vase, its round, plain and BIG. Its what I wanted, modern but classic. What matters most, its BIG so it will create an impact when people enters my living hall.

But it cost me a hefty RM299! Oh dear, that doesn’t include flowers yet and the flowers would cost me say about RM100, that is if I only take 4 stalks. Pergh, flowers and vase pun dah cost me RM400. No, no I need to budget. My mission after that event was to a BIG but cheaper vase. At least RM150 and below.  The flower plus the vase should not cost me more than RM300. I scout around Sunway Pyramid, Empire Building, Romantika and even went to the Curve for IDEKO and Living Quarters. They have plenty of vases but not what I wanted.

I wanted the below... and the flowers tooo

Something like this...big and round but the color and is on the right side

Hydrangea...a unique and bunchful of flowers which makes it exquisite..simply loves it..

Garlic Bread ..Yummy

This is my all time faves! Whenever i make spaghetti, i gotta have this as the side lines..of course adding to my sideline belly as well kakakaka...

I LOVE CLOTHES

I remembered few years back when I was working on and off KL-Bangkok, I had a great time shopping. It was 2 weeks KL, 2 weeks Bangkok. Each time I came back to KL, my luggage would be full! I bought lots and lots of clothing. My wardrobe change tremendously. I didn’t have to buy new clothes for 2 years. Yup, no kidding!

I was petite and slim at that time so it was a bonus for me since Thai’s fashion mostly catered for slim figured ladies. I kindda miss those times. These days I tend to shop for my kids more than I do for myself. My sis has started commenting on my outing clothes, she says they were no longer in trend, dull and macam2 yang negative la.

I think its high time to revamp my wardrobe and style. Now I better look look and see see what’s in trend. Going to make this as one of my 2011 mission – CHANGE OF STYLE.

I love cardigans somehow it helps to enhance you look..make it more trendy

STYLO MYLO

Kerana Mulut Badan Binasa

I accident yesterday! Geramnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Angry at myself for not being careful and cautious! Kelam kabut! For how many years I’ve been driving, I have not knock on any car nor anyone for that matter and yet yesterday the incident was unacceptable. I went out from the carpark and without looking at my side mirror, I just drove off and almost immediately there was a loud bang and there goes my car. I hit the tiang! Ok don’t laugh, it serious ok. I parked beside a wall perhaps too close to it. Tension gila.

As I drove back home I was trying to figure out what went wrong and suddenly it hit me. Right before I went to car park I was gossiping about someone with my friend. WOW, how GOD paid cash! I don’t know why but I never learn the lesson, I realize this year everytime I join any conversation yang gossip about orang, next 2-3 hours im going to get it. Kenapa laa tak insaf insaf, nasha! Me and my big mouth!

The gossip was about this guy who left his 9 children at kampong. I felt he and the wife were pretty selfish and no sense of responsibility. And when the paper stated that people are getting aid to help him with his life, I felt it was’nt right. If he can’t afford to care for his children, why go on and have the 10th child. That made me furious and I felt this kind of people only live in their world without bothering the consequence of their action. Its like EAT LIVE DIE. The basic stuff. Period.

That’s what I commented. Kadang2 bukan nak gossip but their stories are flashing everywhere in the papers. How to close one eye and just read thru. I guess I should not comment about people. Don’t meddle in people’s life. How they going to live, its their life. How they going to fend for their family, let them be. How they treat their family/children pun I should not care coz it’s their lifestyle. Next time I should just read papers like I do with story books. Treat it as a short stories.

In future, I need to zip my mouth and I do hope I remember well this incident. Got to tell myself over and over again. May Allah brush up my behavior and forgive me for all my wrong doings. Amin.

the word gossip=networking nak menyedapkan hati je actually gossip = mengumpat ler